As I woke up this morning to do my mom devotional, during the peace and quiet I endure by waking up very early, so that I can think and have God time to start my day, I was a bit overwhelmed with excitement because my devotional for today answered what I’ve been fearing for a while.
Here is the devotional I read:
“As children we were fearful of monsters under the bed, or we were frightened by the thought of what could be lurking in the dark corners of the room. As irrational as those fears were, they were real to us. We froze; dared not to breathe or cry out, shut our eyes tightly bidding sleep to come. The nights and the darkness they brought seemed endless.
As adults we still fear monsters; however, these days they take form of an irate boss, difficulty with a relationship, an unfavorable medical diagnosis, or a credit card bill. Fear grips us in a real and powerful way, immobilizing us. If we aren’t careful, fear can destroy our peace of mind.
I sought the Lord, and he answered me and delivered me from all my fears. Those who look to him are radiant, and their faces shall never be ashamed. (Psalm 34:4-5)
What are the monsters that you fear? As a child of God, you can cry out to him, confident that he will help. You can shake fear and know that whatever monster you face, you don’t face it alone.”
What have I been fearful of and battling for a while now, you may ask? ADHD.
It’s something I have and have struggled with my whole life and while it wasn’t something that was popular while I was growing up, I’m so glad it’s something that is recognized these days.
Before I became a mom, I was one who always said my kids would never be medicated; I was so judgmental over mothers about EVERY SINGLE CHOICE moms made.
When Kaylee started first grade, we noticed behaviors that were out of the norm for her and it became difficult in school and at home to redirect her behaviors and attention multiple times. We decided to have Kaylee tested for ADHD.
In December 2015, Kaylee was officially diagnosed with ADHD and our world was turned upside down. (It’s funny looking back now how things just happen naturally, or how God puts things in our specific lives to help us understand how precious life can be as parents)
We discussed with Kaylee’s AMAZING doctor all of the options and since I was so against giving children a controlled substance, we decided not to give Kaylee medication and work hard on her behaviors with partnerships with her amazing teacher, who is also my best friend.
Our family worked extremely hard over the school year to promote redirection, focusing, paying attention, doing great work (Which, both of our kiddos are extremely smart) and staying on task.
Our hard work paid off by the end of the year because Kaylee became more focused in her studies and she continued to excel in her academics.
Something seemed to still not be so quite right and had us, as her parents, asking questions.
After many thoughts and prayers, this week we decided to give medication a chance. With the start of summer, it becomes a great opportunity to try medication out for Kaylee that will help her focus on one thing rather than many things at once.
Today is the day we are going to start her medication and our fears are drawing to a close. Is this going to work? Is this the right medication? What if it doesn’t work? Will this paralyze her? (These and many more questions are all thoughts we’ve had)
Please keep our family in your thoughts and prayers this summer as we embark on a new adventure together, figuring out if Kaylee is on the right medication for her ADHD, and that it helps her maintain her focus for future goals and academics and home life.
My devotion this morning spoke to me letting me know that God is with us through this new adventure and will always comfort us during these times. I was thankful to have this devotional time and appreciate all new adventures that come our way.
Lastly, I apologize to all moms I judged while I was a non-mom. As I’m learning, it truly is one of the worst things to do, while embarking on your life journey.
This is the face of my “ADHD Monster” receiving her Principal’s Award for academics and being an overall student in her class ❤