Chaos & Love

It’s quarter to seven in the morning and I’m halfway falling off the bed from a little boy who needed mama and a baby girl who also needed mama. Regardless of the time, I needed to journal.

Oh, if you’re wondering where my husband and other child are- they are sleeping on the couch. Not because we are fighting or mad at each other, but because he had a really nice sleep and our little girl wanted to sleep next to him. 💜

The chaos can be fun and other times it can be disastrous. We have to choose how to respond to it..

1. Do we want to Love through the Chaos, or

2. Be Bitter through the Chaos

It’s hunting season and while raising three kids is hard all by itself, life goes on and doesn’t stop for anyone.

I find myself getting bitter at the beginning of hunting season because I instantly become a single mom/widow/whatever you want to call it, but, regardless, I’m the one trying to resolve and argue with my kids who will be cleaning up the cow poop they stepped in and brought it into the house.

I find priorities being pushed back further and further.

Somehow, my husband can come home at 7:30-8pm and be exhausted from working all day on the family farm, but I’m still left to keep the house running.

Dishes can be piled up and not get clean and like our dishwasher currently that is not cleaning the dishes and leaving residue-I’m the one who is responsible for getting them done.

I’m not bitter, I just want to be better.

Ok, let’s put all that aside and look at the positives:

  • My husband is not having glamorous love affairs on 9th street
  • My husband isn’t selling or using drugs
  • My husband surely isn’t running a small town sweat shop


He is…

  • Working hard
  • Helping his family
  • Hunting to provide the steady flow of meat our family needs to survive
  • Teaching our children life lessons that will never be taught anywhere else

The Chaos immediately turns into Love when I see my husband setting a good Godly example for our family. The Love he shares through hunting, processing, and other things they do on the farm will be passed on to our children.

The Chaos comes to a halt when he fits in hunting time together for just the two of us🦌

For now, I’m going to continue to pray that God continues to keep us together through all this chaos..I’m going to pray that God continues to show his love through my husband and our children learning life lessons that can only be taught through our Lord.

Do you find yourself and your life being Chaotic?

Share with how you handle it..I’d love to hear from you💜


Anxious Hearts, Desired Plans, & Saved by the Grace of God

Being a mom is one of the toughest jobs in the world. A lot of times, I feel anxious because I can’t just let things go. Am I doing this parenting thing right or wrong? Am I disciplining my children as I should?

The desires of our hearts can constantly be at odds with the desires God has for us. When they align, it is a beautiful, peaceful realization. But when they are different, it can create confusion, mistrust, and frustration-often times becaue we lack discernment, which by Christian definition is perception in the absence of judgment with a view to obtaining spiritual direction and understanding.

How do we handle this? Just pray mamas. Pray that our Lord gives us peace. We pray that his will be done no matter what that means for us. In strict obedience to God, we choose not to be anxious, which is easier said than done. He has already promised to guard our hearts. If we as mothers start to feel frustrated or anxious again, we pray. So much of life is out of our control, so why do we bother agonizing when we can just pray.

Matthew 6:33-34 Seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things.

What desires do you have that God hasn’t yet shown you? Can you truly release them to his care, trusting him with your life plan?


Let us Pray!

A Mother’s Duty

Last night was the Christmas pageant at our children’s school. They all did a great job! I’ll post pictures below. I enjoyed letting each girl know how proud I was of them, while others may have looked on at that “weird” mom, I knew it brought a happy cheer to my heart that they were satisfied. I also did it to a friends daughter also! 

Sometimes parenting is difficult and you don’t know what to do, what to say, or how to respond. Last night after the show was over our girls watched as a girl in their class was being yelled at and questions followed on the way home. It’s so hard to explain difficult situations to them, especially, when they are sweet, caring, and kind to everyone. I felt it was my duty to put it into the most simplest form to allow them to have the understanding of what was going on at the moment…

This morning Jehovah Witnesses came to our door, and while I have a respect for all religions, don’t tell me how my bible is misinterpreted. Most Jehovah Witnesses will run away after you try and talk to them about John 3:16 because from a Christian view it means we are going to Heaven if we have accepted him as our Lord and Savior. Jehovah witnesses believe that there is no heaven and hell and that only a few select (144,000 to be exact) are going to “Heaven”. I don’t go knocking door to door to preach my religion to you, but please have enough respect to not run off if I’m trying to prove to you that what my bible says is the way, truth, and light. It was a proud moment and I think God was pleased because later on that evening, we got out of a ticket, didn’t have to wait an hour and a half for a table, and got home safely and soundly.

We also went Ice skating which turned out to be a bad idea. The ice was melting with temps in the 80’s, so how could we ice skate, not to mention, the ice was slicker than ever. We ended up leaving.

We had a very late grocery shopping experience with an exhausted mom and two little girls. I shopped as fast as I could, thankfully, no one was in the store, but us. They were troopers, but they were tired.

All in all, mothers have so many duties day in and day out, we just can’t forget the important things and to us it’s what makes our family our home.

Our family, mom, our minivan, and our mess!
Mark 1:17

And Jesus said, “Follow me and I will make you fishers of men”

A great verse for such a reminder to spread the love, joy, and truth of his word.